Family Love- Wine Label 2023. I choose this image it represents who and what I have always worked hard for my Family. As long as I can remember I have taken the entire world on my shoulders. Wish I could solve all the problems. But little did I know it’s not my job nor is it something I can or will ever be able to do. So I zoomed in on that goal when I was about 9 years old being the big sister and the way God made me I have always had a heart of Gold and cared so much what everyone around especially my family thought. ANd more how they felt and how I could possibly figure out a way to make there life easier or them happier. I from a very young age was Momma to my brothers and sisters. We have always had amazing parents thats not the thing just we were always switching off between them. SO when at dads Candi was Big Sissy and I always handled and cared for everyone.
When I was younger Family Love is all I had
When I was in 8th grade I started really thinking about my life after school, and I had loved Dolphins and Whales since I could remember. So I decided I wanted to be a Marine Biologist and I wanted to find the solution to Whales Beaching themselves. There was a lot of different stories at that time of horrible tragedies taken place all around the world and I couldn’t bare to hear of them any more I was going to help make that change. I went through scuba classes and got licensed to dive In Marina Del Ray. I was set and ready to fulfill my dream.
Then when I was 16 years old I got pregnant with my first son Travis Jay Black he was the light of my life he was my everything. I already was and have always been a homebody. While all my friends and Boyfriend were thinking about when and where the next party was and drinking. I just never cared. I was bored of it, probably because I didn’t drink. And never understood standing around at a house with loud music. Boring. I would rather be home with my mom and little sister. Or hanging with both of my brothers reminiscing about the past always brought some much more joy to my life.
When I had my first son, he became literally my best friend everyday it was him and me against the world, it was July 31,1998, tomorrow 26 years ago. I Graduated High School and went to a couple years of college for my business degree in Management. Then, I Managed a High end gift shop on El Paseo, called It’s ScentSational. His father came and went when he pleased, he left for Dantona, Florida for a year my senior year of High School. Came back right before Prom we went, but nothing mattered much to me, but my son and family. Then would rush home to be with him and that’s what mattered the most. No one including friends or family understood why I never wanted my time because my time was with him. Many years past I tried so hard to give him a family lifestyle but it was impossible with his father in and out of Prison my oldest Sons entire life. When he was out of course I let him live with us pretended for my son. I just wanted him to have a normal family like all his friends. But it was something I honestly had no control over. That’s a sad story this is a happy story. So many years Past and now it was 2007 and I gave birth to my little Angel Nathaniel. I was a young mother with two boys for almost a year before there dad got out of Prison and this time things were so bad my ex best friend called my mom and told her if you don’t come pick up your daughter tonight she just might be dead tomorrow. She was very serious, I “Angel” had saved me 3 times that week already. And My mother and oldest brother came in the middle of the night packed up a Uhual and in one night we moved from Palm Springs to Glendora, California.
I had never known any place but Palm Springs. It was a new beginning fresh start.
I was with my mommy again and older Bro not for long he moved out. We got a little apartment next to the park. I thank my mother and Brother for picking us up that night who knows where we would be had Hanna not called them. Thank God All the time. All that really mattered was my two boys and family, that is all I needed to get through the next few hard years ahead of us. The two things I breathed for they were all I needed to be happy and they were by my side every day. I focused on coaching every sports team Nathaniel had. From Baseball to soccer every season. And Travis went on to Highschool and played Football. I managed to make it with having a couple houses I cleaned and working for a Professor for 7 years handling everything Ato Z. It worked allowed me to be the Art teacher at Nates school for 3 years. Head of PTA. After Nathaniel’s open heart surgery when he was 5years old and the Bully he had the next year I didnt leave that boys site. He had a lot of social anxiety, I had to be there or he would have a break down either Anger or Fear so I just made it work. But none of this would of ever been possible if I didnt have my mom she was my solid rock she allowed me to be there for my boys when they needed me the most. “Family Love” is the strongest and my family was solid always has always will be. Im going to go to bed. to be continued.
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